from ‘Homeless’ written on 09/01/2012 but originally written in the journal in 2011, the purpose of these writings were for me to try to understand and rebuild myself

Do I consider all this writing to be: Self-indulgent? naval gazing? Selfish? Yes. But that is not all it is. It is written in order to tell my side, explain me, and hopefully to help other people who are suffering to know that they are not alone. I cannot comletely cure myself. I am one…

Written 29/12/2011 in ‘Homeless’ and titled ‘Psychology’ remember, in ‘Homeless’ I omitted all names

For so long now and especially in the times when I have nowhere to go and nothing to do, the memories of how the church have battered my name and reputation to defend thier own has been overwhelming me and making me feel so small, so useless, the flashbacks to the way the police treated…

from ‘Homeless’ -written 23/12/2011

waves of bad memories and distress and despair started hitting. How can I cope? Well I just have to keep repairing the little punctures in my bubble with memory blanking glue, otherwise I would be likely to attempt suicide from distress, and then the church could have their triumphant ‘see, she was insane!’. Thier attitude…

justice?

If only Jane Fisher and Micheal Scott-Joynt has put a fraction of the effort they put into destroying and criminalizing me into doing something about my abusers, even keeping churches safe from them, they seemed more interested in driving me from churches, villifying me and getting me a record, which continued the church of england’s…

This is also from 07/01/12 and was entitled ‘from the journal’ as it was from a handwritten diary done in 2011

07/01/2012When my dad died I realised I knew nothing about him apart from him being dad, I learned a bit from his funeral. We weren’t the sort of family to ask questions and tell things and he never talked about his past. My family really don’t know me, so I started a journal and then…