The last of the general posts from ‘Homeless’ – the next step is to start sharing my story, which I wrote on ‘Homeless’

25/10/2011my teeshirt is dirty with stains on it, my clothes are beginning to smell, I need a good shower and tidy up.Thankfully I found my nailclippers and brush buried in the backpack yesterday and trimmed and scrubbed my dirty nails so they are neat and clean, and I brush my teeth even without toothpaste. please…

I am just transferring old posts off ‘Homeless’ these are only about how I was suffering, I will start transferring my full story soon

14/11/2011I just started crying, I am condemned by the church forever, no-one ever has or ever will call the church and clergy to account or do anything about what they do and what they get away with, and I will never recover from what they have done. 14/11/2011 I feel so useless, when does this…

from ‘Homeless’ originally from statements about the churchwarden and his wife, written on ‘Homeless’ on 25/11/2011

(01/02/2014, I referred to the churchwarden’s wife as mummy and the churchwarden as Daddy in this post, which is what the Churchwarden used to want me to call them at home, note, the letters I wrote to the Vicar and his wife were not threatening as the Deanery appear to have claimed, but were in…

28/11/2011 from ‘Homeless’ I may have already posted this

The painkillers are making me too sleepy, this is not good for a homeless person, I have been taking the lowest dose possible, and they do work, but I think I will stop taking the strong ones and just take the anti-inflammatory ones and hope the doctor agrees to the dreaded injections that will help…

from ‘Homeless’ 28/11/2011

Does all this make you conclude that I hate the church? I don’t, otherwise I wouldn’t try to worship each week. I hate the church’s policies and actions and the discrepancy between the way Jesus was and the way the church are, in the case of abuse and the church reaction there is no sign…

from ‘Homeless’ written on 09/12/2011 -not sure why I am posting this apart from getting it off the list, too interesting to delete

When I was young and was doing Christmas preparations with my brother,we used to listen to Christmas songs, one of them has these lines in it: Hallalujah Nowell, be it heaven or hellat Christmas we get we deserve Even as a child I puzzled over this, is the singer syaing that people get what they…

From ‘Homeless’ Historic Blog 14/12/2011 -The reason for all these posts is that I am away and cannot post until tomorrow and will be offline for a a week or more soon

When it comes to feelings and memories coming up strongly as they are doing at the moment, I cannot write very easily, I am too angry, too upset, too hopeless, I feel invalidated by the church and nothing I say or do is valid in their eyes, it makes me worthless and not-human. I woke…

Historic Blog ‘Homeless’ ‘Police complaint -this is part of a post from 16/12/2011

I had been treated as mad and bad by the police at all times and I was traumatised by it. In the time after the police brutalised me in that time when they got me for the Bishop not long after Anne’s funeral, I sat in the church writing out carefully what had happened and…