From ‘Homeless’ Historic Blog 14/12/2011 -The reason for all these posts is that I am away and cannot post until tomorrow and will be offline for a a week or more soon

When it comes to feelings and memories coming up strongly as they are doing at the moment, I cannot write very easily, I am too angry, too upset, too hopeless, I feel invalidated by the church and nothing I say or do is valid in their eyes, it makes me worthless and not-human. I woke…

Historic Blog ‘Homeless’ ‘Police complaint -this is part of a post from 16/12/2011

I had been treated as mad and bad by the police at all times and I was traumatised by it. In the time after the police brutalised me in that time when they got me for the Bishop not long after Anne’s funeral, I sat in the church writing out carefully what had happened and…

from ‘Homeless’ 18/12/2011 -still funny

Before the Bishop retired in Winchester, I was walking through the alley near some of my food bins in Winchester one morning, this was in a pedestrian area and had  ‘NO Cycling’ signs all around, the alleyway was entirely pedestrian and led onto a precinct.As I came out of the blind alley onto the precinct…

from ‘Homeless’ written on 09/01/2012 but originally written in the journal in 2011, the purpose of these writings were for me to try to understand and rebuild myself

Do I consider all this writing to be: Self-indulgent? naval gazing? Selfish? Yes. But that is not all it is. It is written in order to tell my side, explain me, and hopefully to help other people who are suffering to know that they are not alone. I cannot comletely cure myself. I am one…

Written 29/12/2011 in ‘Homeless’ and titled ‘Psychology’ remember, in ‘Homeless’ I omitted all names

For so long now and especially in the times when I have nowhere to go and nothing to do, the memories of how the church have battered my name and reputation to defend thier own has been overwhelming me and making me feel so small, so useless, the flashbacks to the way the police treated…