rubbish

I gather that the ‘independent’ (bullshit) safeguarding (bullshit) panel are ‘trying to establish contact’They aren’t trying very hard at all.Here goes the next lot of severe and unhealable damage to me.I gather this is the same lot who cleared the police of misconduct without getting my side of things.I do not know what draft report…

Jersey 2010 a snapshot while I can keep the memories

I used to love the early morning, I often woke at 4am, and would drink hot tea and go out, usually in Jersey I would go out for a drive in the early morning, and would go down to whatever bay or up to whatever cliff, and sit in my car and look at the…

4am Nightmares

I woke at 3.30am with nightmares.I woke up hot and distressed, dreaming about the police and that they came after me.The problem is, I do have dreams that come true, the church probably did and will make that out to be madness, but I do.The other problem is, I cannot always tell which dreams will…

Judged

To me, every day that this Winchester and Jersey farce goes on, waiting for reports to be published without my side of things, I am on trial, judged and condemned with no voice and no representation.It makes what would otherwise be a calm basic life, very painful and difficult.I carry all the guilt and shame…